Along the brink

riveroffire @ 2006-07-31T19:47:00

2006-08-01T02:55:52Z

*he's leaned against a wall, as per usual, and -- it's his birthday, though he's told nearly no one, and today he's forty-three years old (as much as that even matters anymore, thanks to Raphael) and in a positively foul mood*

*contemplates the glass of wine he's twirling in his fingers, absently studying the play of light on the liquid, and then takes a drink far longer and less dignified than befits the drink, unable to stop the corners of his mouth from turning down*

Happy fucking birthday to me. *drains the glass*

*please, feel very free to bother him*

riveroffire @ 2006-05-07T18:31:00

2006-05-08T01:33:34Z

What a waste of my valuable time.

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1) How many monkeys could spheresconfound fight at once and win against? A good number. He has that damned sword.
2) Is _hellblazer_ athletic? In a sense of the term.
3) Is also_ah related to you? As a matter of fact, she is.
4) What is _hellblazer_'s favorite color? I haven't the faintest.
5) Would you wrestle the_white_sheep in jello? ...Disgusting. No.
6) Where was duke_hastur born? Heaven, I assume.
7) What video game does duke_hastur remind you of? I -- what?
8) Does duke_hastur do drugs? I wouldn't be surprised.
9) What song/movie would you recommend to duke_hastur? For Christ's sake, stop asking me about him.
10) What would fightingblind think of aiming_blind? I think they would get along.
11) What is duke_hastur's favorite band/artist? No fucking idea.
12) What color should also_ah dye their hair? None. It's perfectly fine the way it is.
13) Would willwork4souls and the_white_sheep make a good couple? Oh, Jesus, no.
14) How long have you known _hellblazer_? Four or five months.
15) What mental disorder does aiming_blind remind you of? The standard Hades mental problems.
16) What would _hellblazer_ give duke_hastur for his/her birthday? Does the demon have a birthday?
17) Is aiming_blind single? Not exactly.
18) Does _hellblazer_ smoke? Frequently.
19) Is _styxandstones_ related to willwork4souls? *...laughs*
20) How would angelicguard kill the_white_sheep? Excessive apologies.
21) Would you set up fightingblind and daft_turkey? As hilarious as that would be, I think not.
22) What would you do if daft_turkey died? If that were possible and he did, I would likely spend hours holding Gabriel and watching him cry.
23) Does _hellblazer_ drink? He owns a bar; I assume that's answer enough.
24) Have you ever dated _styxandstones_? ...Jesus fucking Christ, what a question.
25) Is _hellblazer_ a nerd? Not particularly.
26) Would fightingblind be a better ninja or pirate? Ninja, I think.
27) Would you ever date angelicguard? *grins* In a heartbeat.
28) Does daft_turkey go to your school? I should begin a daily ritual of thanking my lucky stars that I no longer attend any school, actually, much less a school likewise attended by Raphael.
29) Would fightingblind go out with hellflowsover? I sincerely hope not.
30) If hellflowsover was a superhero, who would be his/her archnemesis? The Next woman.
31) What would you do if you found out aiming_blind has a crush on you? Commit ritual suicide.
32) Could you see notimmaculate and reign_inhell together? Strangely, yes.
33) Is the_white_sheep popular? ...No.
34) What is willwork4souls's favorite movie? Does he watch movies?
35) Are spheresconfound and daft_turkey going out? Yes. It's revolting.
36) If daft_turkey had a superpower, what would it be? Being irritatingly and repetitively idealistic at people.
37) Is hellflowsover your best friend? Far from it.
38) What languages does willwork4souls speak? How would I know?
39) Are hellflowsover and fightingblind married? No, unless Belle maintains a very convincing secret identity.
40) When did you last call fightingblind? Never.
41) Where would reign_inhell most like to visit? Heaven. *-- bad person*
42) What is duke_hastur's shoe size? Do shoes come in "irritating"?
43) Do you have hellflowsover's screenname? Clearly.
44) Do you think fightingblind is hot? Certainly. I'm sure many people find themselves attracted to him.
45) Does the_white_sheep know daft_turkey? Not as far as I know.
46) If reign_inhell and willwork4souls were spliced together, what would it be like? Terrifyingly demonic.
47) If reign_inhell and _styxandstones_ were spliced together, what would be its name? The Abomination.
48) What rank would duke_hastur have in a giant robot army? Mechanic.
49) If hadeslament took over the world, who would be happy? Lethe.
50) If the_white_sheep took over the world, who would suffer? We would.
51) Have you flirted with aiming_blind? I sure as hell hope not.
52) Are duke_hastur and notimmaculate going steady? Were I religious, I would cross myself to ward off the sheer evil of that thought.
53) Is _styxandstones_ introverted or extroverted? He's -- in a class of his own.
54) Which of your friends should duke_hastur go out with? I have no friends.
55) One thing you can't stand about _hellblazer_? That he hurt my angel.
56) One quality you find attractive in _styxandstones_? He has no good qualities.
57) Does aiming_blind travel a lot? A fair amount.
58) Do aiming_blind and angelicguard go to the same school? I doubt it.
59) What comic book character would aiming_blind be? ...What kind of question --
60) Is willwork4souls dead sexy? I've found myself attracted to him, yes. I briefly contemplated fucking him.
61) What do you agree with notimmaculate about? Many things, unfortunately.
62) aiming_blind's hair color? It's dark.
63) How tall is duke_hastur? Around my height.
64) Is notimmaculate in a relationship? In a manner of speaking.
65) Does the_white_sheep have a crush on duke_hastur? I sincerely hope not.
66) What planet should _hellblazer_ be from? ... Pluto.
67) What animal does hadeslament remind you of? A ferret, but that would seem to follow.
68) How would also_ah conquer the world? By convincing everyone that she had held the throne all along.
69) Does duke_hastur have a dog? I don't believe so.
70) Is angelicguard 1337? ... What the fuck?
71) Has reign_inhell dyed their hair? Not to my knowledge.
72) Would you make out with also_ah? Fucking hell. No.
73) What exotic animal would _hellblazer_ like as a pet? An angel.
74) Is hadeslament friends with also_ah? Friends? You could say that.
75) Where did you first meet angelicguard? *grimly -- badmemoriesbadmemories* In the mansion.
76) How long would _hellblazer_ dating hellflowsover last? Not long at all.
77) Does duke_hastur have a big secret? How would I know?
78) What word best describes _hellblazer_? Infuriating.
79) Would spheresconfound and daft_turkey look good together? No, but they are anyway.
80) Is _hellblazer_ a high school student? No.
81) Do you have a crush on _styxandstones_? What the hell is wrong with this thing?
82) What animal should duke_hastur be combined with? A gnat.
83) What is aiming_blind's biggest flaw? I count "his death" fairly high on the list.
84) If notimmaculate were hanging off a cliff, what would _hellblazer_ do? Point and laugh?
85) Which president would fightingblind be likely to idolize? ...How would I --
86) Did fightingblind break up with you? No.
87) What do you disagree with daft_turkey about? Nearly everything.
88) What flavor of jello would the_white_sheep be? Lime.
89) Where was the_white_sheep born? Into the wrong family.
90) daft_turkey's eye color? Blue, I presume.
91) What would fightingblind do differently in your shoes? He wouldn't fuck Gabriel, I hope.
92) Is fightingblind an emo? ...A what?
93) If fightingblind and aiming_blind were siamese twins, where would they be joined? That is a truly terrifying thought.
94) What is also_ah's favorite game? Mental torture.
95) What is fightingblind's favorite food? I wouldn't know.
96) Has _hellblazer_ been to your house/dorm? Luckily, no.
97) Thoughts on hadeslament? *shrugs* He's my brother and I try to take care of him.
98) What is reign_inhell allergic to? Decency.
99) If fightingblind commanded an army, who would be his/her followers? Jarlaxle would be among them.
100) Is angelicguard a college student? No, but he would be sexy in a tie. *-- yes, this is his thought process*

riveroffire @ 2006-04-30T17:13:00

2006-05-01T00:37:00Z

It's scrawled in his messy cursive on a spare piece of paper somewhere, crumpled, unfolded, and crumpled again, then stuffed into the bottom drawer of his desk. It's dated Saturday, April 29.

People ask stupid questions. Such as "how are you?" No one really cares how anyone else is. "How's the weather?" Such a fucking inane piece of shit, that one. I don't know anyone who gives a fuck about the weather. "Where do you see yourself in so-and-so number of years?"

Most people answer that hopefully, I believe. (Hope, in my opinion, is the virtue most calculated to bring about pain.) They'll be successful, they'll be happy, they'll be smiling and laughing in the company of people they love. (I always said that I don't love. I wonder if I do now. Is it love or is it just another downward spiral of obsession -- I'm an obsessive fool, if you'll recall -- and lust and self-loathing? I have to remind myself that more than anything else -- anything else in this entire fucking godforsaken world -- I want his happiness. That's why I keep my jealousy as much to myself as I can, not that that works half the time. I don't tell him how much I want to kill that demon just for the satisfaction of it, how much I want to have him all to myself. When I'm gone, he'll only have the demon and I don't have the right to care the way I do, much less complain.)

If you ask me that question with enough years tacked onto it, I can give you an entirely accurate forecast of my life in the future. Or, as the case may be, my afterlife. I'll be sitting somewhere deep in the pits of Hell, watching the fires eat away at my flesh over and over again and feeling the pain as if it were fresh and new every time. I'll be reminding myself that the most pathetic thing I could possibly do would be to cry where no one who cares (there's only one person who cares anyway) can hear me. I'll be struggling to remember what he looked like, to remember the exact shade of ridiculously fucking blue in his eyes. I'll be closing my eyes and covering my ears and watching my own memory fade until I can no longer remember the things he said to me that made me so goddamn happy, the promises of love, always, no matter what. I'll be completely prepared to sacrifice anything I have left then to see him one more time. I'll be forcing myself to face that demon, to endure that fucking infuriating little smirk he has, to put up with the fact that seeing him, I'll have to remember. Gabriel will be all his. His angel. No longer mine.

I think -- I know -- that that's what I fucking hate about this. I spent the first half of my lifetime completely lost, trying to stay standing on a foundation of dried blood and ashes. I'm no less lost than I was, but for the first time someone stops by occasionally, holds my hand, tells me that it'll be all right someday, tells me that there's something in me, something beneath the layers of psychosis and hatred and rage, something worth loving. I'd love to know what that is, but for now I'll trust his judgement.

In so-and-so number of years, I'll have lost that again. I hate to be so fucking melodramatic, but I don't think there are words adequate to describe how much remembering that hurts. Losing the only thing you have. That’ll be the last anyone’ll ever see of my peace of mind.

riveroffire @ 2006-03-11T10:55:00

2006-03-11T18:57:13Z

1. Age you will be on your next birthday:

In a manner of speaking.

2. Your favorite color:

3. Your middle name:

*sighs*

4. The place you lost or would like to lose your virginity:

I have an idea. Let's not talk about that.

5. A bad habit of yours:

Shocking.

6. Your favorite fruit or vegetable:

With mozzarella, preferably.

7. Your favorite animal:

Well, of course they count.

8. The town you live in:

My base of operations, anyway.

9. The name of a pet:

*grins*

10. Best friend's nickname:

I fail to see how this connects to "don't need one, don't want one."

11. Your first name:

Looks about right.

12. Your last name:

...yes, how did you know? In reality, my entire family is an army of whatever the hell these are. Wielding swords. Against each other, most likely.

13. The one you love:

I feel a bout of wishful thinking coming on.

[Anti-OTP: Phlegethon/Hamlet. ...]

2006-02-11T04:49:19Z

*for one Phlegethon Hades, ~~destroyer of worlds,~~ sanity comes and goes, and he just happens to be having something of a down period*

*the cure for this, obviously, is to lean against a conveniently-placed wall, rummage in the pockets of his nearly-knee-length leather jacket for a well-worn lighter and a half-full pack of cigarettes and occupy himself with lighting a cigarette with every intent to work his way through the rest of the pack*

riveroffire @ 2006-01-18T20:24:00

2006-01-19T04:26:25Z

*...is dead, for the seventh time (and counting!)*

*is -- in a room somewhere, shirtless, having eventually toppled over after being stabbed through the heart (after which the blade was twisted). note the blood drying on his cheek, the slightly odd angle of his wrist (it's broken), and the acid scarring on his back and shoulders, over what might still be legible as -- details of the last time Acheron and Belle had sex, carved into his back. anyone curious enough upon seeing the blood spilled from his mouth and onto his chin and neck to inspect inside his mouth itself will find that his tongue has been split in two. both arms have bone-deep wounds sliced into them, plus oil and salt; an assortment of darts have also lodged themselves in his shoulders, knees, chest -- et cetera. his fingernails appear to be bleeding as well, and the webs between his fingers have been shredded.*

*did we mention that he's dead?*

For Mama Hades' purposes.

2005-12-19T18:12:29Z

*is, did we mention, alive? the typist hastens to blame certain other people cough Maja cough Chewie cough Angie cough for this*

*is not, however, very happy about this* *so -- sits crosslegged in the farthest corner of some room or other, jacket folded neatly next to him, systematically working his way through a pack of cigarettes* *health risk? what health risk? he's Phlegethon Hades, destroyer of worlds and he don't care about no stinkin' health risk*

*...*

*--right, Mama Hades? have at.*

riveroffire @ 2005-12-13T20:03:00

2005-12-14T04:05:00Z

*--oh.

if anyone cares? (which the typist rather doubts, given the reputation he's been managing to create for himself)

dead. dead, dead, dead. shot through the head -- hey, that rhymes!

but, yes. dead. bloodily and rather messily. there is, however, no actual weapon in evidence.*

riveroffire @ 2005-11-21T15:05:00

2005-11-21T23:06:26Z

*guess who's back, back again? Phlegethon's back, tell a friend!*

*oh, and he's pissed -- this makes itself obvious in the steely glint of his eyes, the rigid way with which he holds himself, and the slightly less-than-sane expression on his face*

*nearly snarled* I do not intend to allow myself into a position in which an angel can kill me again. Gabriel, do not think I have finished with you. I have barely begun.

riveroffire @ 2005-10-29T20:07:00

2005-10-30T03:13:25Z

...

*hello, this is what Phlegethon is currently dressed like*

...Someone will pay for this.